That moment...
DG



..when you look into each other’s eye and you understood one another..

And I call it.. magic! Haha! Ang galing noh? There are really people who will completely understand your mood swings.. your craziness.. your childishness.. your boring stories.. your corny jokes.. and everything in and about you. It’s amazing how an ordinary day can become an extraordinary one simply because you were together and you can laugh at each other’s mistakes and become so silly and annoying, and yet, you still love to be together..

And it’s not just a magic.. it’s a blessing J




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That moment...
DG



..when you see your boyfriend entering a cinema with your bestfriend.

Oh my. This is really.. hmm, what’s the right word to say that is still civil and I may still have my dignity?
Nothing. I will just say nothing.

Walk out from the cinema. Go home. Cry. Then call him. Ask where he’d been. Whatever he says, whether truth or not, I will call for a break up. Sinong matinong lalake ang manonood ng sine kasama ang bestfriend ng girlfriend niya? Wala. Walang logic dun kahit baligtarin natin ang mundo.

I will be brave. Yes I will. Say hello to singlehood one more time J




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That moment...
DG


..when you see your love talking to his ex.

Ouch. A big big OUCH.

Oh yeah right, I don’t have the right to be green-eyed-monster. But please, let me be human.
One of the moments that is really heart-breaking is seeing the one you love talk to his ex-love, that actually he still loves. Ouch. Dude, it sucks. Believe me. I’ve gone thru the pain many times over. Haha! [Now it’s really exaggerated]

This is one of the things I hate. To be a monster. You know. That moment when you don’t want to look at their direction but you want to see if there’s still the spark in his eyes. That moment when you want to walk away to make him feel you’re jealous but you’re afraid he won’t follow you. That moment when you want to ignore but your neck and eyes start to be uncontrolled by your pituitary gland. How pathetic. And yes, it’s crazy.

Well, what can I do? I’m just a human being who fell in love with a man who’s still in love with his ex. And yeah, I am in a complicated relationship with him. And yeah, I accept it. And a big yes, I let him talk to his ex-love. Yes, I know I’m crazy. Don’t shout at me, I am deaf to hear you. I know, I AM CRAZY.


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Sacrifice
DG


“Sacrifice is giving up something you love for the sake of something you love more.”

Hindi ko alam kung sino ang unang nagsabi niyan, basta ang sigurado ko, ilang beses ko na narinig yan. At sa loob ng dalawampu’t limang taon na paglalakbay ko sa mundong ito, masasabi kong ito ay isang masakit na katotohanan.

Minsan sa buhay ng isang tao, kailangan talaga magsakripisyo.

Noon, akala ko kaya kong baliin ‘to. Akala ko pwede namang hindi mamili. Akala ko pwede namang walang mang-iiwan at walang maiiwan. Pwede namang walang bibitiw at walang mabibitiwan. Walang makakasakit at walang masasaktan. “Pwede naman di ba?” Yan ag paulit ulit na sigaw ng kamusmusan ko. Pero ngayon, alam ko na, pambata lang ang paniniwalang yon.

Darating ang panahon na kailangan mamili. Hindi pwedeng pareho. Sabi nga, “Don’t chase two rabbits at the same time. You will just end up losing both.” Minsan gustong gusto natin yung dalawang kuneho, pero kung hahabulin natin sila pareho, wala tayong mahuhuli. Kailangan pumili lang ng isa. Alin ba ang mas maganda? Alin ba ang mas gusto natin? Alin ang mas mahal natin? At kung alin ang “MAS”, yun ang hahabulin natin. Isa lang, hindi pwedeng dalawa.

Syempre minsan masakit. Mahirap. Pero kung hindi natin yun gagawin, lahat pwedeng masaktan. At pwede ring may masayang. Kaya nga ‘sakripisyo’ eh. Meron at merong masasaktan. Meron at merong maiiwan.

“Sacrifice is giving up something you love for the sake of something you love more..”

Kaya minsan, kailangan nating tanggapin ang sakit kung kailangan nating mag-sakripisyo..

At minsan din, kailangan nating tanggapin ang mas masakit na dala ng katotohanang..

Ikaw ang isa-sakripisyo..



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Sariling Sikap [Part II]
DG

SS – Sariling Sikap. Ito ang linggwahe ng mga martyr J

Maganda naman ang “sariling sikap”. Ibig sabihin nito kayang kaya mong gawin ang mga bagay bagay kahit ikaw lang. Hindi mo na kailangan ng tulong ng iba. Hindi mo na kailangang makiusap pa at ibaba ang dangal mo para lang humingi ng konting tulong. Ikaw na lang ang gagawa. Ikaw na lang ang magdudusa. Yan ang sariling sikap. Sa ibang salita, martyr J

Hindi naman siguro kasalanan kung ipanganak kang martyr di ba? Minsan gusto mong magbago, pero ang hirap eh. Kahit pilitin mo, kung talagang ayaw mong makaabala ng ibang tao, ganun talaga. So syempre, sariling sikap ang bagsak mo. Kung mahihirapan ka, again, kasalanan mo yun. Choice mo naman maging martyr eh.

Tulad ng mga ganitong pagkakataon na kailangan mo ng ‘encouragement’. Walang kaibigang pwedeng magbigay kasi lahat sila ‘busy’. Pero ang mas masakit, yung hihilingin din yun mula sa’yo. Kaya no choice ka kundi kalimutan ang sarili mo at magparaya para sa kanila. Mahirap ngumiti pero pipilitin mo kasi kailangan ng iba. Mahirap magsabi ng “Kaya mo yan!” dahil ikaw mismo kailangan mo yun. Pero pipilitin mong sabihin. Magbubulag-bulagan ka sa sarili mong pangangailangan. Martyr di ba? How pathetic. Haha

Kaya kung mapapagod ka, well, pagtiisan mo ang sakit ng pagod. Ginusto mo yan eh. Kung walang mangamusta man lang sayo, eh ano naman? Kailangan ba may makekealam sayo katulad ng pangengealam mo sa iba? Hindi naman eh.  :D

Ginusto mong magpaka-martyr para sa iba. Hindi nila yan hiniling sayo. Kung nasasaktan ka, eh ano pang silbi ng ‘sariling sikap’ mo? Tatlong tapik lang sa balikat, pwede na. Wala eh, sa mga ganitong panahon, sarili mo lang ang maaasahan mo (syempre liban dun si God). Buti nga andiyan pa Siya eh. At sigurado kang hindi ka Niya iiwan J

So pa’no, itaas mo na ang kanang kamay mo ilapat mo ng tatlong beses sa kaliwang balikat mo. Ngumiti ka at sabihin mong “Kahit wala sila, kaya ko to!”

Tuloy ang laban. Walang sukuan. Gamitin ang pusong palaban! J




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Having a little crush on you make me sick.
DG

It's been a long time since I had a crush on someone. You know, it's just a teenage thing, so it's none of my line anymore, right? Haha

But of course it is normal. And actually sometimes we can't help but admire people, especially those who really deserve to be admired.


Having seen you for quite sometime made me curious a little bit. And stalking you for a while can really be an addiction. Oh, now I'm exaggerating. Haha. But that ended so soon.


Having a little crush on you make me sick. Because the more I stalk on you,  the more i compare, and the more I realize how deep it dug in here.

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Not today, my friend..
DG



I have this tale in my head that goes pretty much like ‘you and me’. Oh yeah, tale of obscurity isn't it? I don’t know why, but ‘you and me’ gets pretty much like a war inside of me.

Oh yeah, you don’t get it right. And yeah, I don’t get it right either. Maybe I’m gonna have to turn left and see what’s left for me there. Uh-huh. Today is a day of random thoughts.

Today I am excited.

Today I am confused.

Today I am melodramatic.

Today I am cranky.

Today I am annoyed.

Today I am happy :)



Yeah right. Just a little bit of craziness can make my day alive.

But sadness? Not today my friend :)





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